True you ride the finest hourse I've ever seen
Standing sixteen, one or two, with eyes wild and green
You ride the horse so well, hands light to the touch
I could never go with you no matter how I wanted to
Ride on, see you, I could never go with you
No matter how I wanted to
When you ride into the night without a trace behind
Run your claw along my gut, one last time
I turn to face an empty space, where you used to lie
And look for a spark that lights the night
Through a teardrop in my eye
Ride on, see you, I could never go with you
No matter how I wanted to...

i thought i was over with it . thought the person couldn t get into my mind couldn to infiltrate me with his words .. but how he can how he used to . i simply have to say that i love him no matter what no space no time no sens its pure and evil sadistic love i ve got for him i just wanna talk with him throw myself into his arms and smell his scent i just wonder why i feel this way why ive got myself into so much trouble why i cant even have love or whatever this is called to feel the human beeing form . i feel so lost and like an idiot to believe in somethimg like that . i just meet him for 7 hours and he is just getting so much under my skin like no one before i just returned to him and see whats left behind of so much great word and promises i would do everything for him maybe i will hate myself for my words but its simple and pure i like him for everything he is its so sick and wrong but i can g help it i just wanna do so much for him even drive all miles to him just to see him . i wonder if it will ever will stop the pain and thw hrt the lonlyness- it s like i wanna have something i can never have .miss him so much .. and everytging i m doing every step i am doing he is still with me . strange but pure. no matter how much i drink no matter i an doing i cabt get him out of my mind i wish i never meet hi´m but in the sane moment i wanna never miss a single moment of it i wish i would be stronger wish i could forget him wish i .... i wish so much and i want him to became happpy that he don t have to fight find his way . i know i can never be the person anymore of that to be with him and guide or to help him with all his sorrows . i ve got to move on dom t know hpw but i will somehow even if i maybe will never my goal i hope he ist staisfed with everything he s got . i wish him all the best all the happines all the pureness all the love and to say that its torning myself into pieces i wish i wish so much .
i miss him with every breath i will take with every word i am saying with everything i ve got goodbye sweet love ..
ihis love is gonna tear us apart
maybe one day on a lonley white little ship in a known city its me who will wait for you but not today not now maybe never

Unable so lost
I can't find my way
Been searching, but I have never seen
A turning, a turning from deceit

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel

I can't understand myself anymore
But I m still feeling lonely
Feeling so unholy

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel
But this loneliness
It just won't leave me alone

I'm fooling somebody
A faithless path to roam
Deceiving to breath this secretly
This silence, a silence I can't bear

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel
And this loneliness
It just won't leave me alone
And this loneliness,
It just won't leave me alone, ohh no

A lady of war

Right now i m feeling so lost and lonley it s like floathing in a sea with no horizon i don t know my direction anymore

Jesus it s even to hot to sleep in my room....
Aaah and i need sleep really bad because tomorow i will meet two guys who are intressted in some kind of my pictures ...
maybe i should count some sheeps.
By the way i think that before sunris and after sunset are the most beautifulls and wunderfull film in my life

Yeah yeah its really an anoying thing this weather just to hot to think or do anything -.-
Wish i could put myself in the freezer i ve i had one ....